it's been a while, day +9

i've been quite busy these past few days, so i wasn't able to update, but now i am feeling okay, so i will give you the complete run down.

so basically in my last post, i was talking about my period, aka menstral cycle. i had asked God to give that to me after TBI and chemo, as a sign that all my interal organs are in good shape, since the ovaries are easily damaged. so i got it, which i was very very thankful for, but who knew, it would give me so much trouble?
basically thursday i got a fever, my very first through this whole process, so they drew a bunch of blood cultures, to check for infection and etc. the nurse couldn't get my vein, and was poking around for like 15 minutes, before she called the specialists to come - ha. and my while blood cells went down to 0.0 and i was running a fever, and was feeling really crappy (to put it in simple terms). i layed in bed most of the day, and then friday and saturday i had severe cramps, not just like oh i have cramps, but like cramps that made me realize that giving birth must be HARD (of course...), but yeah i was basically in bed moaning and screaming in pain, the nurse gave me iv pain killer, which did worked a little, and then double dose pill pain killer, and finally by night time last night i was feeling a little better. but pain is...painful. i can only imagine what Jesus had to go through on the cross, and before hand. when i was in pain, i cried to God but i was also very very thankful to know that Jesus had been there before and knows what pain is like, you know, He can relate to me, to us, even though He is Lord over everything. very encouraging.
so i was running fevers over the past few days. today i had a really bad stomach ache, again with the groaning and screaming in bed, and pain medication. the doc said that this is not normal, and if it happens again i need a stomach ctscan, so praying that it's not a infection or anything. i also developed a rash on my legs, and then last night in the middle of the night, a hive-ish rash all over my body that was really really itchy.
and i've also developed a sore throat, from breathing from my mouth for 2 days, and swollen gums and an ulcer that seems to be getting a little better. so it's been kinda hard to eat by mouth, but i'm doing it, little by little. the docs and nurses keep telling me i'll have to go to tpn, which is nutrition by iv, but i'm trying to avoid that, and my mom urges me and keeps me going.

and i've been really emotional and fustrated lately, haha probably not someone you would want to be around for very long. but i think even though all of these things are happening, i'm uncomfortable/painful, God is still faithful and taking good care of me. the blood cultures came back negative, so did the urine tests and all of that. so though i have no white blood cells to help me, i have the Creator, so it's all good. just day by day now.

i wont say much, because i have to keep my mom entertained (haha) and probably go exercise my tiny leg muscles and lung muscles yay! cant wait til i can go home. please continue praying for me, so i wont get infections or any major complications. and praise God for the power of prayer and the power He gives to us through Jesus :)